Wat a nite...

all nite long.. at last, thr goes the end of 70's fashion (rmmu nite).. felt tat my job as an usher sux like hell.. i dun tink i will be an usher for da nx 10 years to cum.. by the end of da event, everyone bz takin their photos here n thr n bla bla bla.. (i oso gt take some la.. lol)

but sumtin seems to be wrong.. i supposed to be hapi for da nite.. coz da event is successful, da crews r co-operative n i got some compliments frm other dj's........ but... y...? y do i still feeling awkward inside..? honestly.. i really duno wat's my problem.. everyday it feels like da heart is sinkin deeper.. haih..

Down..

im crying now.. im totally down.. i duno wat 2 say.. today, i realise tat i didnt hv the gift to becum a dj.. i get frustrated when i couldnt even pronounce a correct word.. i get mad at myself when i cun read certain chinese words.. i get upset when im speechless during on-air time.. i definitely felt the pressure of becoming a dj.. i tried.. i really tried my best but people kept saying i didnt put up my effort 110%..

instead, M & E were doing great during their slot time.. i was really happy for E coz she has totally improved from the day that we first started our 1st on-air talk.. im really proud of her.. but having them as frenz breaks me sometimes because i din improve as much as they did.. i get even worse than the previous one.. maybe im just a engine gal who supposed to just pay attention on class & study all the time.. im not suitable to be a dj.. probably, i decide to quit next semester..

im alwayz the girl who stays quiet & rather be by myself.. because no one knows how is it feels to be in my position.. i realised i told a lie.. that i was alwayz a cheerful gal.. n the truth revealed itself.. im the exact opposite kind..

nOw..

haih.. no mood 4 dj stuff.. left some hopes 4 academic stuff n keepin fit.. (nowadays feelin some weight gain de) but sometimes i find my life meaningless.. even worse, i felt like jumpin off frm my balcony.. (but then wont die lo.. haha..)
perhaps tis is wat life all about.. hapi.. sad.. angry.. excited.. sorrow.. everything cham cham = 1 life..

tough week!

we had a "short" meeting at 10am yst.. oni me n emily attend coz molly went 2 her grandma's hse.. so we were listening 2 wat our dj manager instructed us 2 do during da rmmu carnival on week 3.. nx, he arranged us into new groups of dj for nx week on-air session..

i was kinda nervous somehow coz i hv been paired up v QQ (senior) & Jun (a fcm junior).. we decided tat our program will be " Yeah! 时尚".. n i were supposed 2 find da infos related 2 recent fashion trend.. but da prob is tat... I CAN BARELY READ A CHINESE WORD!! (sobs)
life is gonna be tough as da day goes by..

Father n Daughter..

i was watching "father n sons" tvb drama jz nw.. da part which touches me is when da lead actor, TC was walking bac home v his son, Jimmy who was at 1st holding TC's jacket..(TC was carrying Jimmy's bag at tat time) later on, Jimmy moved another side n hold TC's hand.. touching moment fills in da atmosphere as they both walked bac home..

tis reminds me of my dad.. i remembered him holding my hand once upon a time when i was a child.. i can hardly recall nw but i tink we were walkin around da beach while eatin ice-cream.. anyway, it was 14 years ago of memory.. i dun tink he'll even recognize me if he sees me..

i miss dat dad.. i luv dat dad.. i luv u, past time dad..

Awake..

Some people come into our lives and quickly go.. Some people move our souls to dance..♥♥ They awaken us to new understanding with the passing whisper of their wisdom..♥♥ Some people make the sky more beautiful to gaze upon..♥♥ They stay in our lives for awhile, leave footprints on our hearts, and we are never ever the same..♥♥

我不想忘记你..

我不想忘记你..
我才向前走 却像在退后
我在用想念 关怀寂寞
越快乐就越失落
爱将我们高高举起以后 再让心学会坠落
怀念这广阔的天空 虽然那里空气很稀薄

我努力想起你 笑着哭泣
让自己深爱你 再学会放弃
我不想忘记你 就算可以
我宁可记得所有伤心

我努力想起你 哭也没关系
用祝福和感激 勇敢失去你
爱你这个决定 虽然艰辛
我不说对不起

一个人不懂 什么是拥有
两个人不懂 怎么把握
越在乎就越脆弱
爱将我们高高举起以后 再让心学会坠落
怀念这宽阔的天空虽然那里空气很稀薄..

I will Be...

~I Will Be~

There’s nothing I can say to you
Nothing I could ever do to make you see
What you mean to me
All the pain the tears they cry
Still you never said goodbye and now I know how far you’d go
I know I let you down but its not like that now
This time I’ll never let you go

I will be all that you want and get my self together
Cause you keep me from falling apart
All my life I’ll be with you forever
To get you through the day and make every thing OK

I thought that I had every thing I didn’t know what life could bring
But now I see honestly
You're the one thing I got right
The only one I let inside
Now I can breath cause your hear with me
And if I let you down I’ll turn it all around
Cause I would never let you go

I will be all that you want and get my self together
Cause you keep me from falling apart
All my life I’ll be with you forever
To get you through the day and make every thing OK

Cause with out you I can’t sleep
I’m not gonna ever ever let you leave
You’re all I got
You’re all I want
Yeah
And with out you I don’t know what I’ll do
I could never ever live a day with out you
Hear with me do you see your all I need

And I will be all that you want and get my self together
Cause you keep me from falling apart
All my life (my life) I will be with you forever
To get you through the day and make every thing OK..

I will be (I’ll be) all that you want and get my self together
Cause you keep me from falling apart
And all my life you know I will be with you forever
To get you through the day and make every thing OK yea.. yea..

UpDate Event = Ipoh

15th - 17th oct : ipoh mali~ ipoh ipoh mali~~
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2nd day:

Test CoMpliCateD...

finally.. FINALLY!! completed da oni TEST during holidays.. MUET!! yesh yesh! speaking, reading, writing n listening.. all FINISHED!! but frankly, it's freakin HARD!! especially writing part where i hvnt been writing an essay since foundation year.. wuwuwu..
gosh, i hope i could get da passing marks.. at least band 3.. dun hope for more~ hoosh hoosh!!