Down..

im crying now.. im totally down.. i duno wat 2 say.. today, i realise tat i didnt hv the gift to becum a dj.. i get frustrated when i couldnt even pronounce a correct word.. i get mad at myself when i cun read certain chinese words.. i get upset when im speechless during on-air time.. i definitely felt the pressure of becoming a dj.. i tried.. i really tried my best but people kept saying i didnt put up my effort 110%..

instead, M & E were doing great during their slot time.. i was really happy for E coz she has totally improved from the day that we first started our 1st on-air talk.. im really proud of her.. but having them as frenz breaks me sometimes because i din improve as much as they did.. i get even worse than the previous one.. maybe im just a engine gal who supposed to just pay attention on class & study all the time.. im not suitable to be a dj.. probably, i decide to quit next semester..

im alwayz the girl who stays quiet & rather be by myself.. because no one knows how is it feels to be in my position.. i realised i told a lie.. that i was alwayz a cheerful gal.. n the truth revealed itself.. im the exact opposite kind..