WheRe r u CNY?...

chinese new year has been kinda bored tis year.. especially when u got few amount of ang pau's n nvr get to travel around the places tat u liked.. even worse.. fall sick during the 1st day of cny.. hw unlucky am i.. i spent my whole cny lying on the bed.. when some relatives came for visit, i slept on the sofa while serving them for some food.. when i was sick, there was no satisfaction for food.. everything cums in soup n porridge.. haihz..

finally returned back home on the 5th day of cny.. nvr get to hv much fun at penang.. complained more about my irritating cough.. drank alot of 'pei pa kou' until i get dizzy sometimes.. during nite time, mum din let me go out yum cha with frenz coz of me fell sick.. argued alot of times with her when i wanna go out.. recently jz found out tat my fren's grandpa had jz passed away.. n she has been kinda down lately.. may her grandpa rest in peace.. amen.. n errhmm.. cny ended jz like tat.. (for me)

most sorrowful is tat couldnt enjoy cny with the one u loved.. sigh.. well, nvm.. i used to tat anyway.. do realised can oni be his close fren rite nw.. as someone says.. to love a man, u mz love him less but understand him well.. life is still gotta go on.. oh well, at least im still single n available though.. haha.. study hard n get scholarships will be my priority for nw.. jia you,nicole!!

HaVent I OverCoMe U Yet??!!

i dunno wat to write nw.. everytime when i turn to my blogger page, my mind went blank.. izzit because i dun hv anything to write anymore?.. or i still stuck with the same problem?.. i really tot i could forget about him.. i really believe tat i could start a new life.. but y izzit turning to be like this?.. i did manage to make frenz back with my KV.. but y nt with him?.. y is it so hard to forget him?.. i really dun understand wat's wrong with me.. am i a pshyco already?..

everytime when frenz ask bout KV, i would say we were both fine.. but when they ask bout him?.. i dunno how to answer back.. i kept stucking with tis problem.. i adi said to myself tat i would never ever write anything bout him in here anymore, but y am i still doin it?.. if god is by my side nw, i would confess everything to him.. i would said tat i really wanna get back with him.. but.. but.. god is alwayz watchin from the above.. he would advice me to stop dreamin n get up from ur beauty sleep.. shud i?

i would be doom if his eerr... uhhmm.. c this.. really got to wake myself up.. i did make some frenz over here.. like KV said, time will overcome everything.. let it be~...let it be~.. felt myself like a never ending torture.. ooppzzz.. my mistake.. never ending bumpness.. >.<

LucKy To TrasHy??

it mz be a fanstastic fine day today.. i hv collected my lost wallet from MMU's CIMB bank in the afternoon.. (oh ya, which btw my wallet was lost yesterday when i leave my bag in the library's rack) luckily, my cards r all still in the wallet.. oni rm2 has gone.. but tat's ok.. better than tones of money gone.. but weird thing is.. 7 pieces of my passport photos hv been stolen.. err.. i wonder y.. =.=""

great newz!! i can finally on9!! i can finally surf the net!! so excited!! finally i can download every songs i want!! yeeaaahhhoooo!!! thankz to CJ deh!! the comp's king!! great job man!! BRAVO!!!

oh btw, i hv joined tennis for co-curicullum.. the coach is kinda strict.. but fortunately, i did learnt alot of skills n infos tat hv been taught by him.. starting next week, i've got to go for tennis class for at least 3 hours!! tat will be 4 - 7 pm!! sigh.. but tat's ok.. at least i hv some frenz to acc with.. hehe

i couldnt believe he offers me tat i could find him if im lonely.. thankz for tat.. swt.. im in dilemma nw.. i jz read a magazine yesterday about ex.. it's called "when ur ex falls in love".. when he starts dating someone else it feels like as if breaking up with him all over again.. everything tat stated in the magazine did matched up perfectly with my feelings nw.. oh gosh.. i cried again.. everytime i walked around MMU, i could hear his voice calling my name.. i think i hv started to halucinate.. wat shud i do?..

TruLy MadLy DeepLy..

life in mmu cyber has began.. everything has changed.. the house, the campus, the food, the students.. really differ from wat's in malacca.. it's frustrating tat i hv to get used to this environment.. well, at least im feeling comfortable with my current housemates.. they are all nice, tolerating, funny n oso sam pat!! oh yah!! especially x.h. n flubber.. they can make us sam pat too deh!! muahahahaha!!

n btw, there's so LITTLE food supply over here! i can barely find a restaurant in the campus.. i think im gonna hv a headache when it comes to lunch time.. swt.. i suddenly found myself missing my life in malacca.. easy lifestyle, plenty of food, lovely frenz n classmates, n oso eerr uuhhmm.. better nt to mention tat.. the point is tat.. i miss my frenz in malacca.. i nvr get to say goodbye properly to them last time coz my parents cum n pick me up early.. sigh..

i tot i could forget him when im here in cyber.. i get myself bz the whole semester break jz to grab my attention away from him.. but it jz getting worse n worse.. im missing him like crazy nw.. i wanna go all the way to malacca to meet him.. but my
limitations din allow me to.. im freakin lost nw.. i dunno wat shud i do nw..

recently, my roomie, molly is having problem whether she shud get back with her ex
anot (something like tat i guess).. since her ex hv been treating her nice lately.. mayb she could gv him another chance de.. after all, plz appreciate someone in front of u.. when u really lose someone, u will oni realise hw important the person is.. by tat time, it's already too late.. u can nvr get him back.. forever..