Uhmm.. nicole? or not?

6 types of nicole display over here.. i guess da hair factor does change ur look time after time.. i alwayz gt told by others dat i changed alot since last time, but i dun tink me myself changes dat much.. especially when it cums to my own personality.. im still the old nicole.. who i hv no idea y my frenz used to described me as a gibberish gal when da fact is dat i talk really LOUD compared to others.. (or even laugh out loud.. llolllzzzzzz...)

Love is Cappuccino..

as pretty as a cappuccino can be made, it will not last long.. just like a relationship.. when it comes then comes & when it goes just let it be.. sometimes it is about trust & worship between 2 people.. if 1 failed to get the other trustworthy then the strong bond between both will slowly break down as time goes.. haiz..
so that explains y am i still single till nw.. =P (lollz.. jk jk)

sot sot 的 MMLs..

case 1 : miss nic wanted to change her mmls password but duno hw.. so she 'tangan gatal' go n click da link (student:get password).. den wat happen? .. NEW PASSWORD SENT TO WEBMAIL which miss nic hvnt been log in since ....... 1 year ago??...... so she cun find her temporary student card which contains da name & password...... == ...... ooppzzz!!

case 2 : miss nic try to log in mmls today by usin da old password.. guess wat?? she CAN... log in!! wat da hell?? stupid MMLS prankin on miss nic da whole nite!! >.< but she still couldnt log into exam slip.. so.. EQUALLY DOOM!!! @_@

Xmas Siao Po~

mon morning.. 8.45am.. woke up jz to register course.. but end up in da campus an hour later due to da sulky connection.. (so-called internal server error) so mr. xh n me walked up n down to find a room to register.. afta spending 2 hours here n thr, mission is FINALLY done~

oh ya~ yst nite.. miss momo, yanzi n me sampat sampat go watch "the heartbreak kid" at tgv cheras selatan.. in addition... it starts at 11.30PM AHHH!!! but da movie is kinda funny.. burst out da laughter when da lead actor kept interrupted by da mexican singers.. lollzzz.. XD

Pavilion Hu Hu Hu!!

went to Tony Roma's restaurant to hv lunch v frenz.. da food portion SUPER BIG!! 2 ppl can finish 1 dish deh~ so we ordered many many dishes to share v.. n guess hw much is da total bill? rm579.90!!! phew phew~~

T-T-T-Tasty Tasty~~

introducing.... SMELLY TOUFU~!!

yeap.. although it smells like shit or rubbish or even worse than corpse, but it tastes good~
certain people dun believe it taste good due to da smells dat it produces.. but once u put it into ur mouth, da smells jz went off.. if u still find it smelly after eating it, mayb it's becoz of "psychological factor".. (which smells bad = tastes bad) lollz..
i hv tried it n it taste DELICIOUS~~ well, it's oni my 2nd time eating it so uhmm.. we will c den.. haha..

get things clear~!!

ok, 1st of all.. he is who i alwayz call on msn.. ( ah bi)!!! so dun get misunderstood dat he's my boy boy.. duhzz.. coz lately receive alot of joke bout me n ah bi.. which i dun understand y they would nt believe it's a cute puppy doll.. @_________@

worthful contribution..

i jz gt recommended to a website called http://www.freerice.com.. tis website invites u to play their vocabulary games.. for each question dat u score, u r contributing 20 grains of rice to da hungry people.. in addition, u can improve ur english vocabulary as mine really boosted up after playing da game..

we as human couldn't help each n every unfortunate people through out da world.. but wat we can do is to give our 100% sincerity n least contribution to those people.. u will never know dat a simplest stuff dat we nvr learn to acknowledge it, is a great deal for them as they appreciate anything dat has been given..

so plz do help.. perhaps somewhere in da world, someone is eating da rice that u have provided.. tq

MoMents wHr i gT irritated..

midterm has finally finished.. nw it's time to face da finalz.. but seems like frm da beginning of tis semester, i cun find any fresh mood to da world of studies.. for example? i slept in da class, i skipped class, i kept chatting when i supposed to study, i couldnt concentrate when im studying.. bla bla bla~~~

is tis the end of da world to me?? (which im nt quite sure of it coz i din even knw da midterm results yet) so here i am.. adding another blog to kill da time.. christmas is coming soon n yet im lack of christmas spirit.. i found dat my recent thinking is stupidly childish.. "is nt like santa's gonna cum into my house n drop me a present rite??.. so y celebrate it?" (pathetic thinking of mine)

n lately i hv been prejudice to ppl who "pak to"-ing.. each time i gt dumped by frenz who wana go on a so-called "date", it makes me feels like da odd person.. everytime gt left out in a crowd.. ggGRRR... being single for 1 year & 8 months doesnt make ur life easier.. sometimes u jz find urself in a lonesome street, struggling to stand stronger than anyone else.. well, as my recent profile said : live a happily never after life..

Wat a nite...

all nite long.. at last, thr goes the end of 70's fashion (rmmu nite).. felt tat my job as an usher sux like hell.. i dun tink i will be an usher for da nx 10 years to cum.. by the end of da event, everyone bz takin their photos here n thr n bla bla bla.. (i oso gt take some la.. lol)

but sumtin seems to be wrong.. i supposed to be hapi for da nite.. coz da event is successful, da crews r co-operative n i got some compliments frm other dj's........ but... y...? y do i still feeling awkward inside..? honestly.. i really duno wat's my problem.. everyday it feels like da heart is sinkin deeper.. haih..

Down..

im crying now.. im totally down.. i duno wat 2 say.. today, i realise tat i didnt hv the gift to becum a dj.. i get frustrated when i couldnt even pronounce a correct word.. i get mad at myself when i cun read certain chinese words.. i get upset when im speechless during on-air time.. i definitely felt the pressure of becoming a dj.. i tried.. i really tried my best but people kept saying i didnt put up my effort 110%..

instead, M & E were doing great during their slot time.. i was really happy for E coz she has totally improved from the day that we first started our 1st on-air talk.. im really proud of her.. but having them as frenz breaks me sometimes because i din improve as much as they did.. i get even worse than the previous one.. maybe im just a engine gal who supposed to just pay attention on class & study all the time.. im not suitable to be a dj.. probably, i decide to quit next semester..

im alwayz the girl who stays quiet & rather be by myself.. because no one knows how is it feels to be in my position.. i realised i told a lie.. that i was alwayz a cheerful gal.. n the truth revealed itself.. im the exact opposite kind..

nOw..

haih.. no mood 4 dj stuff.. left some hopes 4 academic stuff n keepin fit.. (nowadays feelin some weight gain de) but sometimes i find my life meaningless.. even worse, i felt like jumpin off frm my balcony.. (but then wont die lo.. haha..)
perhaps tis is wat life all about.. hapi.. sad.. angry.. excited.. sorrow.. everything cham cham = 1 life..

tough week!

we had a "short" meeting at 10am yst.. oni me n emily attend coz molly went 2 her grandma's hse.. so we were listening 2 wat our dj manager instructed us 2 do during da rmmu carnival on week 3.. nx, he arranged us into new groups of dj for nx week on-air session..

i was kinda nervous somehow coz i hv been paired up v QQ (senior) & Jun (a fcm junior).. we decided tat our program will be " Yeah! 时尚".. n i were supposed 2 find da infos related 2 recent fashion trend.. but da prob is tat... I CAN BARELY READ A CHINESE WORD!! (sobs)
life is gonna be tough as da day goes by..

Father n Daughter..

i was watching "father n sons" tvb drama jz nw.. da part which touches me is when da lead actor, TC was walking bac home v his son, Jimmy who was at 1st holding TC's jacket..(TC was carrying Jimmy's bag at tat time) later on, Jimmy moved another side n hold TC's hand.. touching moment fills in da atmosphere as they both walked bac home..

tis reminds me of my dad.. i remembered him holding my hand once upon a time when i was a child.. i can hardly recall nw but i tink we were walkin around da beach while eatin ice-cream.. anyway, it was 14 years ago of memory.. i dun tink he'll even recognize me if he sees me..

i miss dat dad.. i luv dat dad.. i luv u, past time dad..

Awake..

Some people come into our lives and quickly go.. Some people move our souls to dance..♥♥ They awaken us to new understanding with the passing whisper of their wisdom..♥♥ Some people make the sky more beautiful to gaze upon..♥♥ They stay in our lives for awhile, leave footprints on our hearts, and we are never ever the same..♥♥

我不想忘记你..

我不想忘记你..
我才向前走 却像在退后
我在用想念 关怀寂寞
越快乐就越失落
爱将我们高高举起以后 再让心学会坠落
怀念这广阔的天空 虽然那里空气很稀薄

我努力想起你 笑着哭泣
让自己深爱你 再学会放弃
我不想忘记你 就算可以
我宁可记得所有伤心

我努力想起你 哭也没关系
用祝福和感激 勇敢失去你
爱你这个决定 虽然艰辛
我不说对不起

一个人不懂 什么是拥有
两个人不懂 怎么把握
越在乎就越脆弱
爱将我们高高举起以后 再让心学会坠落
怀念这宽阔的天空虽然那里空气很稀薄..

I will Be...

~I Will Be~

There’s nothing I can say to you
Nothing I could ever do to make you see
What you mean to me
All the pain the tears they cry
Still you never said goodbye and now I know how far you’d go
I know I let you down but its not like that now
This time I’ll never let you go

I will be all that you want and get my self together
Cause you keep me from falling apart
All my life I’ll be with you forever
To get you through the day and make every thing OK

I thought that I had every thing I didn’t know what life could bring
But now I see honestly
You're the one thing I got right
The only one I let inside
Now I can breath cause your hear with me
And if I let you down I’ll turn it all around
Cause I would never let you go

I will be all that you want and get my self together
Cause you keep me from falling apart
All my life I’ll be with you forever
To get you through the day and make every thing OK

Cause with out you I can’t sleep
I’m not gonna ever ever let you leave
You’re all I got
You’re all I want
Yeah
And with out you I don’t know what I’ll do
I could never ever live a day with out you
Hear with me do you see your all I need

And I will be all that you want and get my self together
Cause you keep me from falling apart
All my life (my life) I will be with you forever
To get you through the day and make every thing OK..

I will be (I’ll be) all that you want and get my self together
Cause you keep me from falling apart
And all my life you know I will be with you forever
To get you through the day and make every thing OK yea.. yea..

UpDate Event = Ipoh

15th - 17th oct : ipoh mali~ ipoh ipoh mali~~
1st day:

























2nd day:

Test CoMpliCateD...

finally.. FINALLY!! completed da oni TEST during holidays.. MUET!! yesh yesh! speaking, reading, writing n listening.. all FINISHED!! but frankly, it's freakin HARD!! especially writing part where i hvnt been writing an essay since foundation year.. wuwuwu..
gosh, i hope i could get da passing marks.. at least band 3.. dun hope for more~ hoosh hoosh!!

RedBox, Pavilion & again PAVILION!!

10th oct : went out 2 redbox n cheong k~!! finally i can go out n relax afta terrifying final examz!! so we went to sunway piramid's redbox.. rm36++ per pax.. expensive but once in a while it's kinda fine v me.. hehe.. we kept sing n sing throughout da whole nite.. until my throat sored.. haha..

11th oct : is day of shopping~ we went 2 kl 2 shop!! n omg!! pavilion kl is HUGE!!! full of BRANDED stuff!! we walked da whole kl endlessly deh.. later at nite, our fren (twee king) asked us out 4 yum cha.. so we went 2 a arabic restaurant n guess wat did we order? ... arabic tea... lolz.. so we jz sat thr for 4 hours long while drinkin tea~ da whole conversation is kinda excitin or else we 3 would fall aslp while listenin 2 twee king talkin.. da best part is tat he laughs way too loud until we laughed at his laughter!! muahahahhaa!!!


13th oct : bac to kajang.. gosh! i fell down into a big drain tis morning!! ouch~ okok bac 2 topic. 1st, went 2 kl again v my fren (tiffanie).. so we walk n walk da same place as i went on thurs.. but tis time when i walked into pavilion, gosh!! it's more BIGGER than i tot it be.. we were actually surveying for shoes coz tiffanie's shoes is achin her.. but most of da shoe shop is SUPER EXPENSIVE!! lolz.. so at last she ended up wearing her achin shoes till the end.. hehe.. on our way bac, it rains heavily!! i cun even c da road deh!! luckily i wasnt the one who's drivin or else.. accident could happen.. lolz. anyway, my relatives cum for visit today.. hehe.. but havin them stayin in my house is kinda crowded.. lolz..

Nicole's Lost Record..

once again.. 2nd time in a row.. 3rd oct 2007, 11am.. i had officially lost my phone in da campus (multipurpose hall).. da same phone..!! makes me wonder if i ever had any fate v tis nokia 6280.. tis feeling sux!! sux to da MAX!!

tis is how it gt lost.. 9am where da exam jz started.. i alwayz leave it (switch off condition) in my pocket.. 9.30am, 1 of da invigilators told me 2 take it out n put it on da floor.. & so i did.. 11am, da exam had finished n everyone rushed out 2 da exit.. i was in da crowd.. totally forgotten bout it..

reach bac home nt long ago & realise "gosh! my phone!"... so rush bac 2 da venue & find.. result? ntg.. ntg.. NTG!! ask da invigilators, lecturers, security & even da cleaners.. no sign of it.. frm tat moment, i adi knew it.. some sort of student must be takin it.. & guess wat? tat particular person will nvr return it for sure!! (ggrrr.. screwed tat person!!)

gosh! i was really angry v myself.. hw could i lost all da important stuff so MANY times??! 1st is phone, then is wallet, next is student card & nw ... ANOTHER PHONE!! freakin scary man!! crushin my heart!! >.<

y me? y does it hv to be my stuff everytime?? wat did i do to deserve such punishment?? if i did commit any mistake, plz jz punish me straightaway.. u took things away frm me, u make me suffer, u make my mum suffers, u make her money suffers.. hw could u..? sobs..

该忘了你对不对

该忘了你对不对



大雨过后的眼泪
挂在充满回忆的橱窗
我却不想忘以往
那些心碎的心创

记忆是一个行囊
陪伴着我到世界流浪
我让悲伤都装上翅膀
再见了就不能倔强

该忘了你对不对
怕自己无法面对
无怨无悔
把一切留给纪念
受过沉默的创伤
它会慢慢被岁月
一片片填满
渐渐就习惯不再想
忘记曾经最痛的地方

该忘了你对不对
我应该坚强面对
学会遗忘
不能像爱的挣扎
记忆会为我收藏
那些美丽时光
为爱付出过的力量
带着爱去寻找
幸福的希望.....

One's ThinkinG Is True Sometimes..

Love means to commit oneself without guarantee, to give oneself completely in the hope that our love will produce love in the loved person. Love is an act of faith, and whoever is of little faith is also of little love..

Love grows by giving. The love we give away is the only love we keep. The only way to retain love is to give it away..

The greatest weakness of most humans is their hesitancy to tell others how much they love them while they're still alive..

It is the best and most beautiful things in the world cannot be seen or even touched. They must be felt with the heart..

I love you - those three words have my life in them..

The Day Whr I Din SpenD on AnyThing!!

the day is friday.. everyone luvs friday.. is a fine day 4 us 2 do anything, anytime & anywhere.. zzzzz.. unfortunately, it doesnt quite happen to me.. last nite, my house mate, YC persuaded us 2 go shopping in 1u together.. oh well, since we alwayz break our promise 2 accompany her shopping, so we decided 2 make it tis time..

woke up at around 11am.. n DAMN!! it's raining.. but aikz~ it stops after a while.. ok.. so we were able 2 go shopping deh.. reached at 1u around 2 something & everyone was starvin like a pig deh! at last we had out lunch in jusco food court since miss emily wanted 2 hv a soupy lunch.. hehe..

okok.. so here's the plan.. YC wanted 2 get a present for her bf.. n so we accompanied her 2 look for it.. walk up & down, left & right, middle & end.. AT LAST, after all those painful walk tat i had (coz i wore high-heel shoes.. lolz..) YC managed 2 get a bag pack in VOLCOM.. (super expensive!!)

i had alot of thoughtful consideration while i was shopping.. but at last, i din get ANYTHING! arrGGHHH!! fuck off those expensive shoes tat i like deh!! a pair magnificent black shoes!! cun afford it!! DARN!$%#&!

haiz.. then again.. think of the other side.. im nt broke.. i did save some money.. i oni spent on food n transport de.. simply the best resolution i had today.. i'll do more shopping after my final exam.. ngek ngek ngek.. ok tat's all for nw.. got 2 cool down my painful n swollen feet nw.. =P

Thank U, Molly..

during the nite meeting tat we had jz nw, we hv our on-air slot evaluation.. when it cums 2 our turn, my senior gave me some bad comments bout my pronunciation in mandarin.. all of sudden, my roomie, molly raised up her hand.. at 1st, i tot she wana apologize for her mistakes in previous recording.. all of sudden, she defensed me for putting my effort for improving my mandarin in front of everyone..

i was touched by her words.. for 1 year n 7 months we hv been roommates, tis is the most touching words tat she hv said.. so wat i wana said is tat (nt lesbian ahh!) : thank u, molly for ur words n actions.. thank u for all those helps tat u hv contributed 2 me, n thank u for walking into my life n being my roommate.. thx for being patience n gd listener 2 me when i was really down..i can still remember the 1st day tat we met (quite funny actually.. haha..) although we fights sometimes, we tend 2 be frenz back after tat.. so thx for everything.. we'll alwayz be buddies n roomies for past, present n hopefully future.. = )

memories back..

Friday Extravaganza~

7th september - went 2 mv for... SHOPPING!! but then i tink i oni managed 2 shop a little bit here n there.. haha.. oh well.. pk pk PK!! anyway, we started by havin a nice meal at Madam Kwan's (seriously delicious) nasi lemak~ tis is my 2nd time havin it n yet it tasted like heaven!! yum~

gosh, in the end, we hv 2 pay rm 66.70 for lunch!! there goes the money 2 buy stuff.. haha.. oh ya, tat's me n my roomie v a beautiful flower.. really really pretty.. =X ok la.. including both of us too.. hahaha..
nite time, came back in a WET condition!! it was raining like cats n dogs deh.. all of our stuffs were soakin wet.. but overall, it was a fun day as we... DAMN.. miss the KLIA train on our way back.. if u c us complaining in the station, u would tink tat u were lookin at "orang gila" there.. lolz..