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i wan him bac.. but does he wan me bac..?
im afraid to know..

sOaR with hOpe & sTrength

was studying when i suddenly came across with tis touching song (busy clicking here & der).. almost cried listening to it.. it was a korean song, sang by a boy band [SS501] so i searched for da english lyrics.. it was originally written for charity purposes & da words r reli meaningful..
i wana dedicate tis song to the child victims of war happening & oso to my family & frenzz.. u will alwayz be in my heart..

SS501 - Wings of the World [English Lyrics]

VERSE 1:
There are times when tears come at night
Thinking back to all you’ve sacrificed
Looking at how much you have grown
It makes us so proud to be your fans

Praying day by day for health and happiness
You will always be in our hearts

CHORUS:
Remember that we will always stand by you
No matter what happens; so, don’t be afraid
Should you fall down, get up once again
With us all behind you, you will soar with wings of the world

VERSE 2:
So many precious memories
Playing scene by scene before our eyes
Witnessing all that you have done
Always walking with you step by step

With each passing day, we’ll always cheer you on
You will always be in our hearts

Repeat Chorus

BRIDGE:
We know that there may be times
That you’d feel lost and don’t know what to do
You can just lean on us (echo: just lean on us)
We’ll give you hope and strength to carry on in this world

Repeat Chorus

Izzit Reli Her..?

am i dreaming..? or its real for sure..? i was chatting v my secondary school fren tis afternoon & i suspected dat someone was hacking her account or sumtin.. she doesnt sounds like wat she used to say while chatting.. she even asked lotx of questions regarding love & sex.. when i asked her wats wrong, she said she asked for fun.. O.o
da moment dat i started question-ing her.. she went offline immediately..
suspicious rite..? >.<

pOkai - inG..

im reli broke.. broke until i dun tink i have enuf of money 2 spend for another week b4 midterm break time.. i went 2 "sapu stock" today until der is only rm20 left in my wallet.. my most expensive stuffs are both facial toner & moisturizer from FACEshop, which i wanted 2 try it since i have imbalance skin pigmentation.. *luckily not age spot O.o
i was planning 2 eat bread for my dinner but ended up eatin at foodcourt, sk.. i was oso planning 2 finish studying chapter 1 of communication network but ended up yum cha - ing at oldtown, cyber.. (but luckily gt sponsor of the day.. thx saviour!! keke..) so in conclusion, wateva i planned alwayz got interrupted LOLzz..
how am i gonna face for the 2 upcoming MIDTERMS tis week...??!?!
totally unprepared** =.=

eXam cOmpLaints >.<

i wasnt expecting da ques 2 ask for method 2 append da vowels >.< while ppl were rushin on writing da program, i was sittin der & wonderin of wat kind of method uses vowels stuff!! flipped thru da whole book & still couldnt find any.. so i jz leave it empty *reli din know wat 2 write anywayz..
gggGGRRR!! exam SUX MAN!!
& im reli pokai since last month.. cun figure out whr my money flies too.. i gotta have an account management asap! >.<
when da ptptn's cumin?!?!! i nid them!!

dashing nitetime..

yikes!
clock strikes 2am & java still not flushing enough to my brain >.<
luckily i still have time till 2mrw evening 2 chase up with..
even so, im reli feeling nervous bout 2mrw's midterm coz this is my 1st open book exam & i hope not 2 waste most of my time flipping thru da book instead of answering da questions..
but thankx 2 someone, im feeling good as well.. made my day today.. all da best for 2mrw ya.. =)
alrighty, enuf of blogging rite nw, gonna get bac 2 study soon.. till den, ciaoz..

nite fuss..

it's 2am & yet im still here blogging even with 8am class awaiting.. was revising java bout an hour ago & i started 2 have a bad headache + coughing.. oso frustrated v my recent feelings.. shud i start da move 1st..? or just wait & c..? the act of pulling n den pushing away reli bothers me.. i duno if he ever read wat i write now, but i feel like a foolish person now.. stuck in the middle.. & remain hanging..

im sOri..

today.. i hurt one of my closest fren's feelings.. i know she's damn upset nw & yet i still saying such stuff to her.. now regrets fencing thru my heart.. mayb coz im not used to express my thoughts thru words.. but wateva ur decision is, i'll gv 101% support as alwayz.. be strong gal..
& im reli sori for my harsh word towards u.. (_ _)

finally came friday, the day for relaxation afta 4 days of classes.. but tis friday, im enjoying & coughing at the same time.. i was already sick for the past few days & it didnt seem to recover at all =.=
i tot it was h1n1 at 1st coz i got almost all symptoms related.. luckily, the result was confirmed last wednesday to be NEGATIVE.. phew~~ but having lotz of phlegm & coughing non-stop reli irritates my throat & torturing my lung appallingly.. >"<

Devastated...

i made a simply foolish decision & witnessed a disappointment beyond me.. tis feeling reli sux.. all i can tink is "why such thing happens to me..? wat did i do 2 deserve such payment..? if i have not made such stupid decision, would i feel much better..?"
many times dat these questions wondering around my head.. i cried until i couldnt cry anymore but deep down reli feels like a gun shot through my head >"<
i wana erase him out of my life, i wana delete wateva pics i took v him, i wana block him in verbal & non-verbal contacts.. everything bout him, i wana THROW it AWAY 9 9!!!

a depressing nite..

jz bac from mamak supper.. damn full afta eaten "thosai telur" & nice cup of ice nescafe.. ^^
even so, i was feeling kinda gloomy coz i jz heard 2 of my closest frenz who just shared their heartrending stories.. both involves love & relationship crisis.. i was shocked when one of them almost turn to single status.. & it was a long-term relationship..
it reli annoys me how guys couldnt understand wateva dat their galz do & behave awfully selfish when it cums to troubles.. in the end, galz tend to shed their tears becoz of guys.. if only guys could comprehend wat their gf do for them & not complain about it 24-7.. >"<

ice age 3 ^^

i finally get 2 watch a movie called "Ice Age:Dawn of The Dinosaurs" today, after delaying da trip again & again.. luckily da tickets are still available & da seats are sort of perfect kind as we 6 ppl all sat together at nearly top-center row.. thx to da e-payment of coz~ ^^
anyway, da movie was totally hilarious~!! & a fanstastic animation of coz~!! luv each n every funny scene from da "mammals" XD
& guess wat? der is a female squirrel~~ awww~~ so wat will da male squirrel choose in the end? da nut or da lady~? ngek2~
n oso.. Buck, the delusional, swashbuckling & one-eyed weasal living in a dinosaur world~? my favourite character of all (he makes da whole movie more interesting & enjoyable for sure XD)

buck, da funniest weasal ever! XD

we have been laughing from da start till the end, especially da 3 loudest ones [ning, boon2 & chu]..

& for da 1st time i din finish my popcorn as i usually did b4 da movie ends.. *over pre-occupied with da movie.. lolz

Left Out Nite...

damn DAMN emo... reli envy to those who get to watch 陈奕迅, Eason who currently is performing in MMU (Malacca Campus).. it is obviously a rare opportunity to him 2 come into a university campus 2 promote his new album H3M.. oso heard dat he's going to Sunway Piramid too, but rite now.. TICKETS SOLD OUT~!!! *down ahhHH~~~

reli luv his new album, especially his debut hit songs Allegro, Opus 3.3 a.m. & 於心有愧.. i even checked how Allegro, Opus 3.3 a.m. got its name.. da word "Allegro", which means quick and cheerful musical tempo in Italian & "Opus" which is a latin word, is defined as the numbering of music pieces by composers that has generally run in order of publication.. plus, tis song was changed 3 times and final piece was completed at 3.30 am.. =.=""

sigh* if oni i knew bout it earlier..