6th Year Anniversary...

its been 6 years so long.. i almost forgot today is already the 6th death anniversary..
but i still misses her..
i miss her excitement voice.. and also her bubbly personality..
she always there for me in good and bad times..
but car accident took her away..
i was crushed.. i cried so long to think that she has gone forever..
but now, i know she is always be in my heart.. my good friend..
i will always remember her :)

listening to the song that we used to listen it together all the time.. love u girl <3

Dj Sammy - Heaven (Slow Version)

start point of rejection..

feeling a weird vibe today.. people stare coldly at me.. or talk irritatedly to me.. 

or lie intentionally to me..
i started to get an isolation feeling.. or better word, rejection..
nor i will ever know what i have done to deserve this..
how long could i ever hold my mask till then..
or should i just go by walking away  ...?  wish i knew..

today's resolution!

damn.. bad headache..
cant drink much alcohol lately.. maybe because starting to get old @@
people started to see me older than 25.. which im not YET!
shall go for an intensive jog later + heavy face mask !!
asa asa fighting!!!

i'll move on..

got a call this morning.. someone who i know.. someone who used to be close to me..
asking if i am doing okay recently.. if i am happy with my life..
how does he expect me to answer.. fine...? great...? fantastic...? {(_ _)}
sadly, i answered fine.. work is fine.. life is fine.. and everything is fine..
but i wish that he did not call me at all..
because this is just gonna make me miss him again.. which i dont want to.. especially when i have already managed to forget this person..
the fact is that i am happy of where i am right now.. and that i have already move on with my life..
that's why kept listening to this song since this morning :)

 

the final ceremony~

yes, i have officially graduated on saturday (8th Oct 2011)..
but i don't feel any excitement like everyone else.. not even nervous to take the scroll from pro-chancellor..
just happy that i get to take some pics with friends and family after the ceremony ends..
this marks the end of my study life for good! lolzzz..

lovely coursemates~

alpha friends~

wahaha.. me xD

btw congratz to friends who graduated as well.. keep in touch always ^^
gonna miss u guys :)

no more ~~

lost again today.. once again met two GREAT competitors..
although managed to decrease the scores gap, but we still lost to them..
sad that i lost again.. but glad its over.. because NO MORE PRESSURE...!!
and also happy for Eileen & Yusuf for winning their match and became champion ^^

fav quote :)

分手快樂

to my beloved friend who is going through the pain now: 


分手後，你快樂吗..?
分手後，你可以走得更遠，看得更遠...
別留戀於過去，別對前一段感情有所眷戀..
我也知道.. 突然要放下   或許... 很難.. 但...你一定可以的...!!
對於不能重來的傷害，我們都要學會...釋懷~~~!! :)

uni 生活..

不知道为什么.. 今天突然很怀念mmu的生活..

以前超喜欢跟朋友们一起自拍..

但现在.. 觉得越来越不会拍照了..

是不是因为老了.. @@

hmmm.... 刚刚自拍的照.. 

拍了看来手的pose好奇怪.. xD

noob noob!

sporty day

due to lost of atm card and expired license (which i just found out today ..!!), i have no choice but to stay home and become 宅女.. @@
so i end up doin workout the whole day.. 2 hours of badminton, 1 hour of jog and lastly 80 sit-ups.. :)
ahh~~~ feelin so fresh now.. and proud of flat stomach ^^
i can move up and down so freely~~ move like jagger, im gonna move like jagger~~ xD

Maroon 5 feat. Christina Aguilera - Move Like Jagger

saturday nite blue..

why am i feeling so blue tonight..
don't feel like going out.. neither do i feel like doing anything..
even my wallet is feeling blue as well..
it is getting thinner.. but i cant make it fatter..
because i lost my atm card.. arrrgggHHHH!!
why so 倒霉 wan geh...!?!?! ><

stupid me..

why cant i move my leg...? why cant i catch the ball..? why didnt i try my best today..?
losing is sucks.. disappointing my team is even sucks..!
every time i end up with panicking and got frozen @@
how could i ever improve if i keep standing still huh..?? pek cek ahhh!!
.....
freakin depressing moment .. (_ _)|||

lots of burdensome..

its again the time tomorrow.. feeling depressed so soon..
i wish i wasnt as overwhelmed as in the previous match..
my team lost in the previous match.. i wrecked my own game completely..
i really felt sorry for disappointing my team.. i let my nervousness get the best of me..
its really hard for me to hide my tears at that time..
telling myself that it is just a game did not go through my brain as well..
i pray that i could suppress my own panic and anxiety tomorrow..
i hope not to let my team down again.. because it may be our last match tomorrow =(

count my faith..

it has been a day after a deep agony.. although i look okay from the outside..

but its been bothering me inside.. 

i do admit, i cursed alot yesterday after reading such thing (come on, who doesnt?)

no matter how many friends that i have turn to, they all giving me the same answer :

"You cant change it.. This is u and ur personality.. We love you for that.. So learn to live with it.."

frankly, this phrase does knock me out.. in the sense of it also reminds me of the quote that i have been living all this while -> "I rather be hated for who I am, than to be loved for who I am not.."

thank you Lord, for giving me the ability to share this message.. :)

true realization..

i received a Facebook message from a lady.. she called me a bitch in the message..
she thank me for meddling her relationship.. but the truth is that.. there is nothing going on between me and the her guy..!! and i certainly have no intention of flirting or snatching her guy..!!
nobody wants to be called a bitch for being the 3rd party.. especially me..!!
but today being called that makes me thinking if my way of interacting with guys could hurt someone else..
i always thought that guys treat me as their buddy.. because of my manly attitude..
but now.. totally was shocked of it..
should i be changing my personality due to such accusation...? :(

nerves flooded..

i can feel my whole body shaking even when im staying still..
too much "kan cheong - ness" + stress inside my body..
will it explode later..? ><

wish me luck**

meet my dear, Mr Depp~

came across a picture taken on last weekend..
think i'll faint if he who is a real person standing next to me..

the one n only Jack Sparrow

bad day.. bad feel..

from the moment i woke up, i knew it was gonna be a bad day..
but never thought such bad day could affect a person's mood and feeling..
who could stand all those betrays, insults and stress within a day..
even so, i could still wore a mask to work..
pretend nothing has happen.. putting a fake smile..
because i know..
even if i said it out loud.. no one could understand how i feel inside..
been listening to this whole day at work.. love what lyrics described..

sulky sick..

shouldn't have sang too much yesterday.. i really lost my voice today..
attacked by sorethroat + flu ..!! ><
life is sucks when u started to sick ..!!
can't do anything when u sick sigh**
luckily there is something to cheer me up ..

freaking adorable box with some desserts to be expected...

weehoo~~!! my favourite green tea & tiramisu~!!
finally today is not a sulky day after all =D
gonna enjoy it after recovered..
thanks J ^^

A Message to God..

dear god..

please listen to my prayer..

there is a girl whose heart is getting weaker now.. 

trying to spend every day suppressing those hurtful memories..

trying to forget but why tend to recall..

recalling makes her loses her daily smile..

making she feels herself in the pitch dark..

no one there to help her shine through the dark..

please guide her through this agony..

because she afraid she cant take it anymore..

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