when you're gone..

it was so sudden.. i didnt see this coming.. to hear that grandpa passed away early this morning..
i just dont get it.. the last time i see him, he looked totally fine..
still smoking.. drinking and chit chatting with his friends... like how he always does..
before i knew it, a stomach cancer took his life away... just like that...
God took him away without letting me to say last goodbye to him..
i cant even see him for one last time..
tears are welling up my eyes as im writing this post..
because there are so much more things that i want to share with him.. but now he's already gone..

my grandpa is the world's most happy-go-lucky person and i adored his spirits so much..
i dont see him as a grandfather, but a friend... who always believe in me when no one does..
i still remember him making me a promise... that someday he will come to KL and find me.. and that i would promise him that I will bring him to enjoy all "hou-chiak" food in KL..
i guess this promise cant be fulfilled anymore...

dear grandpa, if you were listening from up there.. i want to say Thank you.. for always prioritize us before you.. even the times when you were ill.. for being a great grandfather to us all..
you never knew how much your love, support, and praise meant to me and how much you will be missed by all of us.. i love you grandpa.. ♥